being in control

Dawns Life

I'll admit it, I like to be in control of things. I like to be in control of things that happen in my life aswell as Adam and Aarons. I believe it all goes back to before my first marriage. I lived on my own and I was in control of my own life, I had my own place and didn't have to answer to anyone. Then I got married and he took it all away from me and turned me into something I didn't like, he belittled me and told me I was worthless and fat and ugly and that no one would ever love me the way that he did. and after 3 years of marriage I believed him. Then I met Adam and he taught me I deserved better than that and helped me become the strong person again that I once was. So its hard not to be in control over things. I don't want to turn back into the person I was with my first husband, I didn't like that person I was, but in the same time if I don't I might loose this husband. I'm very lost right now.