a day in my shoes.......

Well this past week was busy....On Sat I worked a craft fair for my business so Adam had Aaron all day...well needless to say he walked a day in my shoes and dealing with Aaron all day...Adam did very good at taking care of aaron, but the house on the other hand was a whole different story....lol then on Sunday I was so sick so Adam took care of Aaron again...I think it kinda got to him, because he was having a hard time talking care of Aaron, Me and trying to do his homework. Well needless to say when I finally pulled myself out of bed on Monday..the house looked like a pigs sty!!! I don't even think a pig would want to live here....lol It was so bad even dinner dishes were still on the TABLE!!!! and then he wondered why i got mad....lol Well I did pick it up slowly and when Adam got home from work on Monday he did do dishes for us....now I remember why I cna't go away and leave the boys alone and why I can't get sick...lol But atleast I know I can leave Aaron in the good hands of daddy and that hes safe and thats the most important part!!!

My Dumbo!!!

Well its been awhile....

Lets see where do I begin???? HUMMMMMMMMM well lets see Aarons been doing great and getting really really big now...hes such a big boy...I love this little guy so darn much!!! My business is doing WONDERFUL!!!!! last monthI turned in alittle over $1100 in sales so that put me over the $4000 make in a month..so I ended up getting my show to go promotional item that Pampered Chef was giving away to consultants!!! This month is kinda slow..I have a Craft fair this weekend that i'm working at and a another on Thanksgiving weekend...but so far no parties booked. But I hope that changes this weekend. Adams doing really good...hes thinking of doing his OCS paperwork again in January so he might not be getting out of the Navy. I wouldn't mind because its a good life and the benifits are awesome but we won't see him as much either and Aaron and I would have to learn how to deal with that if this is what he decideds to do...but we will support him 110% if this is what he wants. I've been slow working on my diploma but I'm going to start working on it more this coming week..thats my goal ...lol Adam will do his homework and I will do mine after Aaron goes to bed. Aaron had a wonderful Halloween..he had so much fun...he was the cutiest little Dumbo andyone has ever seen....if you haven't seen his pictures you can go to http://photobucket.com/albums/v109/navywifecvn70/Aaron/Pumpkin%20Patch/ and check him out at the Pumpkin Patch and on Halloween in his Dumbo outfit...well i'm heading to bed..I'm tiredand have a busy day ahead of me tomorrow...lol but hey whats new. I'll write again later!!!!

what a day!

Dawns Life


Well here it is Wednesday and I haven't wrote in here for awhile so lets see where do I begin...hummmmmmmmmmm ok well like I said last time i'm staying busy with Pampered Chef..I'm $1000 away from doing $4000 in 2 months so hopefully by the end of the month I will have that 1000...For the month of Sept I was NUMBER 2 on my team for the highest sales! I was so happy...we busted our butts trying to do it...see i'm trying to earn some pieces of luggage that can carry my products and they gave us til the end of Oct to turn in $4000 in sales..we so far I have won 2 of the 3 pieces and now since I'm this close I can't give up now and be happy..its no good having 2 out of the 3 pieces..thats like having mittens and a hat but only having 1 mitten...I NEEED the set. I'm really enjoying doing Pampered Chef..I love doing it with Adam...its our time out of the house and an evening away from Aaron...its our date night we call it...and Aaron just loves his sitters...they treat him like hes theres..I'll never find better sitters anywhere..i'm gonna miss them when we move..tonight I was trying to tell them that they will have to move with us...lol They really spoil him rotten...lol I really want my business to be successful and i'm trying everything now to make it that way. I actually have a sitter 3 days a week for a couple of hours a day so that I can focus on my business and do the things that need to be done and some days its really hard doing things when I have Aaron with me. Try going to the post office with 4 boxes and a 1 year old..it just ain't happening....lol I had to wait til Adam got off work..I just couldn't do it....Well we had a party tonight and it was good..we had a dessert party an boy did everyone love Adams Chocolate Peanut Butter delight...everyone seems to love this mans cooking...lol well I'm gonna run..later

its Thursday

Well its been awhile since I have posted on here...my life is crazy thats for sure...but things are going good here at home for the most part...we have had our ups and downs lately with fmaily but we have decided we are doing what we want to do and it don't matter what others think...we are a family of 3 not a family of 30 or even 300...and if someone doesn't like the way we handle things well thats there problem not ours and they don't have to be apart of our life. And with that said I'm done with the subject!

Well this month has been great for my business...Adam and I did over $2000 in sales just this month alone! Were looking forward to that almost $500 commission check on the 10th of Oct! We are planning on paying off our entertainment center! I'm so excited thats one less bill we will have every month!!!! And next month is pretty booked for parties aswell..so far I have 3 kitchen shows booked and 2 catalogs...so I'm hoping to do about the same next month. That will be nice then Aaron will have an even better Christmas! Right now Pampered Chef is doing a contest for the consultants and if you can turn in $4000 worth of sales from Aug 1st to Oct 31st you can get a 3 piece carry all for your products...I'm trying to earn that...so far my total is $2138.69...so I'm not that far away..I know it can be done I just need to bust my ass this month to make sure I get it...lol In November my friend Connie and I are doing the Starving Housewives Craft Show..I sure hope we get some leads for the month of November..I'm sure we will get some if not thats ok too..it will be fun working this though.

Well I signed up to start school..I'm getting my diploma in Tax Preparer..I'm really excited...I just wish my books and stuff would get here soon so I can start. I'm doing this through an online college and I'm hoping to be done with it by Feburary so that I can work some of the tax season. Well I guess thats about all for now...I'll try to stay more on top of this from now on....Laters!

I don't understand.....

What I don't understand is how someone can blame ME for Adam trying to commit sucide! And then he has the balls to talk crap about me to other family members and say rude mean things about me in front of my face, and of couse he doens't have the fuckin balls to talk to me and tell me that he blames me for this! And then when asked if he could just be nice to me for the sake of Aaron he said "NO" ..... so why in the hell should I be nice to him then? Any why in the hell should I allow my son be around this man EVER!!!!!! He says if I wasn't so lazy and bossy Adam would of never tried to kill himself....WTF does that have to do with Adam having issues with porn and not knowing what he wants in life? And for him to judge me that way when he doesn't even live with us or for that fact live near us!!!!! He has no clue what goes on in our house on a daily basis....but for him to hate me the way he does is just stupid...I think he just still wants to be the boss in Adams life and if i'm to bossy then he can't be the main boss anymore and rule over Adam. But what he doesn't know is that in our family there is no main boss....we all have EQUAL say...sure there are still some things that need bosses...like Aaron hes the boss of his toys, i'm the boss over Aaron and Tabitha....but in no way am I the boss of Adam nor him of me...we are EQUAL partners in this marriage, but personally I don't think its anyones else business what goes on in THIS household......so until this person is perfect he shouldn't be casting the first stone at anyone!

Our little man

Well our little man is growing up! Today we went to his 1 year check up..hes weighing in at 25.8 pounds and is 32 inches tall.....hes doing so many grown up things...I LOVE watching him learn new things too...like today daddy was showing him how to push the button on top of his top..then after daddy was done he did it all by himself and then all night he was playing with his top. Sunday he even made daddy cry because he was out on the back porch just playing away with a toy he had only played with for a few days...and the best part was you have to push a button to get the train to move and I showed him once and he caught on to that and now plays with this toy everytime he goes outside...hes not a baby anymore hes our little man and i'm loving it! I can't wait to see what else life has to offer us with this little guy...I sure hope were ready for our little smart man!

just got home from vacaton

well we got home last night from spending a week in Colorado. We went home for Aarons 1st birthday!!! It was so nice seeing everyone and we had a blast on Aarons birthday. his party on the 3rd was great...he had such a wonderful day...he saw alot of relatives that he didn't even know he had...lol we also got to see alot of people that we haven't seen in a year so that was really nice too. It was sad to leave but we had to get back home so that Adam could go back to work plus we have to get everything back home taken care of aswell. I'm thinking about getting a job and putting Aaron over at the CDC over here on base. Adam and I are going to talk about this more tonight. We want to pay off some bills before he gets out so that we can buy a house so really this is the only way we will be able to do this. I'm not sure what type of job I will get, I'm hoping for a evening job then Adam can watch Aaron while i'm at work and we can save on the centers cost, but we will have to see what kind of job I can get in the area. I called MWR today and they have an opeing at the bar on base as a bartender so I might see about that. Adam said he wouldn't mind me doing that. So we will see..I'll update more as I figure out whats going on...plus we are thinking about moving into town so that we can save some money that way aswell...its a thought so who knows...ok enough ramble now...later!

reading Adams post...

Dawns Life

Well reading Adams post on his blog got me thinking about how much I dream...I'm always in dream land! I dream everyday what our life is going to be like when Adam gets out of the Navy, I dream about what Aaron is going to be like when he gets older, I dream about my grandkids...see i'm always dreaming about what my life will be like when i'm older. Sure I live for the day but I also what to know what my future holds in store for me. I've always wanted to go to a psychic but everyone always laughed at me....Adam teases me..I go to this one site on the web and it tells you how old you will be when you die, I'm not sure how much I believe it but I do keep it in mind what it tells me. Is there anything really wrong with being a dreamer? Do I dream to much about what life has in store? Do I try to plan to much because I want my life to end out the way I've dream it would be? Adam says I plan way to much, but I like being a planner...I like to know whats going to happen next. I like having a schedule...but is that wrong either? I guess I have alot of questions that I need to answer for myself aswell. I guess I expect to much out of life and should just let the cards lay where they are dealt.

ERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

why is it when I think things are going good..something always comes and screws it up???? Adam had to go to San Diego today for training..so he left this morning at 0430....things are really tight for us right now since we are getting ready to leave on Monday..so this little trip to SD isn't something I was happy about...you see the navy sends you to a place and you spend your money and then they re-emburse you in 5-10 days..well needless to say Adam is having o spend our trip money for his trip to SD and sure they will pay us back but it will be AFTER we are supposed to be in Pueblo!!!!!!! I thought he only needed food money so atleast it was only $20 out of our fund..well now he just calls me and tells me he had to pay for the rental car!!!!!!!!! I was like WTF..man I didn't need to hear that right now. He didn't know he had to pay for his rental car..I really wish someone would have told him that then I would have been prepared....so now who knows if we will leave on time...this money was to be used to book a hotel room...either we leave on time and sleep in the car or we just wait til the 31st (payday)to leave...this is not making me happy at all...errrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

My baby is turning 1!!!

 

Well in 2 weeks my baby is turning 1..I can't believe it...hes becoming such a little man..I just love him oh so much...his molers are coming in..today his bottom left one came through..hes been such a trooper...I love this little guy so much..I can't believe hes really mine still and no one has come and taken him away from us yet...lol Adam and I used to say that when he was first born...we were waiting on someone to come take him away from us at the hospital..it was like he really wasn't ours...I'm so glad no one took him away from us...sure we might not be the best parents at times and sure theres alot we don't know but thank god Adam had his baby mannual or we would have never gotten through the first 8 months....lol That book has saved us many of times...lol yeah I have to tease Adam about his book because he read it faithfully while I was pregnant and the first 8 month of Aarons life....Adam swears every baby should come with a mannual like this...lol

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my crazy life

Well here I am again talking about my crazy life here in beautiful Fallon Nevada...LOL made you laugh huh? Ok admit it you wanted to laugh right? Well somedays all I can do is laugh at my life here in Fallon Nevada. To be honest this isn't the best place in the world to live but its not the worst either. Yesterday Connie and I did the farmers market again.. it keeps getting better and better every week...can you tell i'm joking???? We decided not to do anymore..we are done..it cost us more money to sit down there on our butts then anything else. We did manage to get a few showsout of it now lets just hope the shows are good. Today Aaron was a happy camper his molers are coming in and I can tell they hurt him so much. But hes a trooper and he only cries every now and then. Other than that nothing else is going on in my life. I'm looking forward to our vacation coming up here on the 29th. I'm not looking forward to my baby turning 1 though..hes my baby and that means hes getting older and won't need his momma that much anymore. But i'll always need him...hes trying to walk more and more hes just so cute...we try to let go of him so he can walk on his own but he catches on to daddy and me real quick...he is alot smarter than we are at times...lol but hey thats ok I always wanted him to be smarter than I am. Oh yeah one other thing...I'm still working on my diet..I started out on March 25th at 425 pounds and here I am on Aug 17 at 383..thats 42 in less than 5 months...I'm so excited!!!! My goal was to be at 380 by Aarons birthday and it looks like I might just make it there after all...I've been stuck at 387 for about 3 weeks now...ever since all this happened with Adam..I got depressed and I went and got alot of my comfort foods and just ate like ther was no tomorrow..but the great thing was I stayed my weight I didn't gain any..so now i'm back to working on my diet the best I can..I still have some ups and downs but thats ok I'm trying to do whats best for me and my family. Plus if I deprive myself right now of the things I want I will just want them more and fall off my diet completely and then my attitude will be bad and then Adam and I will be back to square one with me thinking i'm in charge all the time..so right now I'm trying to do everything right and thats all that matters and in the process I'm loosing weight slowly but surely. So once I hit that goal I will start reaching for a new one. My next goal will be 375! I'm hoping to be around 300 my next March if everything goes right! But i'm just taking one day at a time and we will see where that takes us. Well i'm heading to bed right now...Dawn

Lazy Monday

Dawns Life
Well its lazy Monday..poor Aaron isn't feeling to hot..I think his mouth is bothering him again! Today is going good..nothing to big...this weekend had its ups and downs but Adam and I made it through them like troopers...lol We still have some rough edges to work out but it will all come in time..I'm trying to be alot more understanding and open and not so bossy or pushy, and for anyone who knows me this is very hard for me, but I'm trying my hardest to do whats right for our family. Some day I might get it right but until then I just have to try my hardest to get it right.

Busy today..but whats new

Dawns Life

Well Aaron and I slept in! He got up at 0730 and had his milk then went right back to sleep until 0945!! Boy that was great...how hes in watching the backyardigans..he loves that show too and then blues clues are on after....Adam and I had a little talk yesterday but not enough to please me..we just don't get to talk enough, we either have Aaron or someone else comes and we have to stop what were doing. We just need some time alone but I can't seem to find us a baby sitter for the life of me, and I just won't trust anyone with my little guy. Tomorrow morning I have my Pampered Chef show in the morning and then we are all going into the city to go to Sams Club and out to dinner. It should be very nice for us to get out and have something nice. I guess we will get some free time when we go home since it doens't seem like were going to get it here since I can't find a baby sitter. This really sucks. This one girl who called wanted $30 for 4 hours of baby sitting and we just can't afford that. Geeze teenages are charging alot more these days to baby sit. I'm gonna go get Aaron ready to go to the commissary when daddy gets home for lunch..they are doing the first ever farmers market over there and I need some fruit for the party so I'm gonna go get some here in a bit. Well I'll write more later when I can!

Thursday Morning......

well this morning is off to a slow start...my head is hurting so Aaron is sitting here watch Dora and playing with his toys. He sure loves his toys. Daddy bought him last ight a walking/riding toy and he just loves it..but hes not to sure about walking by himself just yet so hes just playing with it and hes having fun! as you can tell not alot going on today..hopefully this afternoon I feel better then we can go to play group...guess we will see. I need to get in and clean up the kitchen aswell plus make our shopping list so we will see. This is cool I see we can put pictures in here so I'm gonna post one of my little man..hnes such the love of my life ..oh thats so cool..a pic of our little man..ok well i'll write later Dora is ovedr and he wants to help type and I don't like him to touch the laptop so i'm gonna close...bye for now!

Tuesday!

Dawns Life

Well Baby..I know you can tell me over and over how sorry you are, and I believe you I'm just still very hurt and I will get over it but I won't ever forget what happened. I just need time to heal in my own way I guess just like you need time to find what your looking for.

Today was the farmers market, it was a slow night there...did one sale other than that it was very slow for both Connie and I. Aaron is still teething and its killing me...he cries so much I just wish these molers would just hurry up and come in for gods sake! I need my sanity...lol but yeah good luck on what mommy wants...lol Well my smart little man learned somehting new today...he learned how to turn the TV on with the remote! Daddy thinks it was on accident but I think my little genious is just to smart for his own good. So we will see if he can do it again at a later date....lol we need to prove daddy wrong!!!! LOL but Aaron is very smart and it gets him into trouble alot...I love watching him with Tabitha...he loves her so much its just to bad she didn't love him...lol I would love to get him his own kitten but I don't think Tabitha would allow that in her house! So I guess she will just have to put up with his tail pulling, his kisses, his rough petting, pulling of the ears, and chasing after her...lol just wait til he starts walking shes really in trouble then..I can't wait to see the look on her face when that happends...thats gonna be priceless..I remember her look when he figured out how to move in the walker..I think if looks could kill I would have been dead...lol boy will she be in for a big surprise...lol I love watching my little man discover new things...I fall more in love with him on a daily basis. Hes the best gift Adam could of ever given me!

Why am I still so mad...

Dawns Life

Why am I still so mad at Adam...its not that i'm mad its that i'm still very hurt by what Adam did. I know I should move on but its hard when you have no one to talk to about it except for Adam. Everytime I try to talk to some one..they always turn it into talking about themselves. So then it turns into listening to there problems and to hell with what i'm going through, it always turns out that way for me thats why I ended up on depression meds while Adam was deployed. I'm just so mad and hurt that he could just do something so stupid like this, didn't he think of what would happen to Aaron and me if he would of died! We would of had nothing and I would have been left alone to raise OUR child by myself. I think thats what makes me the maddest..is that he would of left me all alone to raise Aaron. I can't raise this little guy on my own..I need him here with me. Aaron needs him...Aaron loves his daddy so damn much I can't compete with that, I honestly think Aaron just puts up with me during the day until daddy gets home because he has too. How could he even be so selfish to do something like this and to think that I wouldn't care?? He says he thought we would be happier...hell how much more happier can one person be? How many other people do you know that is as happy as I am? Why shouldn't I be happy, I have a wonderful husband and beautiful child, we have a house over our head an Adam has a great job that takes care of our needs...what more does anyone need? And he thinks hes not a great role model for Aaron..oh please...hes a better role model for Aaron then his dad was ever for him! He needs to realize that Aaron loves him so much and hes a great daddy...he was so afraid of making the same mistakes and not having a good relationship with his son, but he needs to realize ONLY HE can change that!! I just don't understand how he can tell us he loves us so much but was willing to walk away from us that easy....It would take the good lord himself to take me away from my family!

Day from Hello!!!!!

Dawns Life


Well today has been the day....It didn't get started right at all...lets see at 0330 Aaron woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep..so we finally put him in bed with us so we could atleast go back to sleep. Then he decided to get up at 0715 when daddy was getting ready to go to work...needless to say I didn't want to get up then but had no choice! Well then all the rest of the day he cried..I think hes teething again or just wanted to be a pain in mommies rear end today..either one was enjoyable!!! Finally daddy came home for lunch and I got a few minutes to relax and not hear crying. This poor baby would cry if I was holding him and he would cry if I put him down either way I couldn't win for the life of me. Well daddy gave baby lunch today and then put him down for his normal nap. I finally have peace and quiet in the house needless to say that didn't last but an hour. He was still very moody when he woke up but I was in better shape to handle it this time since I had a break aswell. Well at 1400 we went to play group...once a week a bunch of the ladies I know that have kids all get together so the kids can play..it was nice to get out of the house and Aaron had a fun time aswell...he got to play in the pool and play with the kids so he was happy. Daddy came home at 1600 like normal...thank god!!! Its been a long and tiring day for us all...Aaron went to sleep early tonight..please pray he doesn't wake up at the crack of dawn tomorrow. I don't think I could handle it. Adam has been great he knows that Aaron is taking alot out of me right now and I just don't have the energy to do much of anything. I feel very ran down and I just don't care if my house or anything gets done anymore. I know I need to clean the house but why? I can clean it and then the next minute Aaron had something dumped on the floor or his toys are thrown all over..I just can't keep my house tidy the way its supposed to be..so I just give up and then I don't care about any of the house...shoot I can't even get laundry done...I can get it in the washer but then it stays there for a few days and then I end up having to rewash them again because they have sat to long. Why can't I just get the hang of being a mom and a housewife? Why does it have to be so hard? I know many moms have done it before me so why is it so hard for me? I don't understand..I used to keep my house spotless..shoot you used to be able to eat off my floors...now sure you can eat off my floors but who knows how long that food hads been there! I'm just so tired of picking up something and then 10 minutes later its a mess again. I know that comes with having a kid but geeze there has to come a time when it stays cleaner longer than 10 minutes or so and please don't say yeah when there napping...lol I guess I just need to find a happy medium for myself and go with the flow. Well enough ramble for the night..I'm heading to bed...nighty night!

a day.....

Dawns Life

Well the weekend came to an end peacefully...I felt we had a good weekend, we hung out and talked and most of all enjoyed our family! I still trying to adapt to the new me..I'm trying and I do mean trying to be a better and nicer person and not be so bossy..and even when I do find myslef being bossy..I stop and correct myself..but atleast i'm noticing that i'm being bossy. And I'm trying to say please and thank you more. not only do I need to learn this for me but I need to teach Aaron how to do it and if I don't do it myself how can I teach him that its the right thing to do. Well today is Aarons 11 month birthday..I can't believe hes going to be a year old in a month..seems like just yesterday Adam and I were getting ready to go in and have a c-section done. I just love looking back and seeing his new born pictures..I'm just so in love with this little man we have. Both him and daddy are my worlds and they mean life to me..without them in my life I have nothing. These guys are my every reason! Well I have the farmers market tonight so I better get thing ready for that while Aaron is down for his nap..I'll talk more later!

its getting better

Dawns Life

Well around here our days are getting better and brighter! Adam is starting to feel better about himself (from what I can tell) last night we sat and played a game...and boy did we laugh and have fun..we need to do those types of things more. I'm trying to be more of an equal to Adam and not be in so much control over everything. I know it will take me some time to get used to but hes willing to work with me on this and I know it will be good for the both of us. Tomorrow I have a Pampered Chef party so i'm trying to get everything ready for that and i'm also working on things for Aarons 1st birthday. Adam put in his leave chit so that we can go to Colorado for Aarons birthday. I'm so looking forward to getting away and having fun with Adam and Aaron at the state fair there in Pueblo. Aaron is a very lucky little boy to have such a wonderful daddy who loves him and cares for him...if only every little boy was so lucky!

being in control

Dawns Life

I'll admit it, I like to be in control of things. I like to be in control of things that happen in my life aswell as Adam and Aarons. I believe it all goes back to before my first marriage. I lived on my own and I was in control of my own life, I had my own place and didn't have to answer to anyone. Then I got married and he took it all away from me and turned me into something I didn't like, he belittled me and told me I was worthless and fat and ugly and that no one would ever love me the way that he did. and after 3 years of marriage I believed him. Then I met Adam and he taught me I deserved better than that and helped me become the strong person again that I once was. So its hard not to be in control over things. I don't want to turn back into the person I was with my first husband, I didn't like that person I was, but in the same time if I don't I might loose this husband. I'm very lost right now.

MY life in a nut shell...

Dawns Life

Well we are now home from Lemoore..what an eventful trip we had...lol Adam talked to the doctors and Aaron and I hung out...end of story. Adam and I did get to talk some by ourselves. This is the first time we really have got to do this since he tried to kill himself. I don't think he understood how hurt I was by all of this. To him, he didn't think I would care that he wanted to kill himself. We do have some issues that we need to work out. The big one is talking to each other...he needs to learn how to open up to me more and not be so affraid of how i'm going to react. and in the process I need to learn how to be more understanding aswell. I guess my marriage isn't all that wonderful after talking with him, to him he feels like my slave and all I do is tell him what to do and how to do it. So now I guess i'm gonna have to learn to do more things for myself and not ask so much out of him. Adam doesn't feel like he has his own life anymore..all he feels like is hes my husband and Aarons dadddy. Geeze I know how he feels...anymore all I am is Aarons mommy and in my spare time i'm Adams wife...but until Aaron gets old enough I guess thats how its gonna be. But i'm ok with it, but Adam needs more in life then just being a husband and a daddy and I understand that. What I don't understand is why he turns to porn, but then again he doens't know why either so I guess I'll never find out until he figures it out for himself. He said he turned to porn not because we have a bad marriage because he doesn't really feel we have a bad marriage just so things need to be worked out more. And he said he doesn't get sexual satifacation from it, so i'm not really sure, I figure if he can't figure it out then I shouldn't be able to either since it makes no sence to me. One day I hope he figures out what bothers him so much and why he finds it necessary to look at porn and go to online dating sites to find other women since he says nothing is wrong with our marriage. To me if he has to go to all of this something is wrong and hes just not tell me the whole truth. Well thats my life in a nut shell.....

IN CA

Dawns Life

well here we are in Lemoore CA with Adam while he is here going to the hospital. Aaron and I are just taking it easy and enjoying time with daddy. Tomorrow we are heading home, after adams appt with the doctor. I'll write again in a couple of days!

today...

Dawns Life

well today was a nice day...Adam and Aaron let me sleep in! We took Adams dad for a ride over to see Lake Tahoe. It was very pretty over there today and the weather was awesome not to hot at all (nothing like Fallon) we have been having breaking numbers here..over 100 for the past week, so it was really nice to get up into the cooler numbers. Tomorrow we take Adams dad to the airport then we are off to Lemoore so Adam can be seen at the hospital over there. Its about a 7 hour drive for us so we are leaving tomorrow to make it easier on us so we don't have to leave so early on Monday since his appt is at 1400. Adam and I are taking one day at a time now and enjoying eachother and Aaron. It just reminds me daily how quickly someone you love can be taken from you. I'm very greatful that Adam is here with Aaron and I..I can't imagine life without the one I love and cherish. Well I'm heading to bed..I'll write more later on!

Dawns Life

Dawns Life

just sitting here watching tv and thought I would play around with this and see what else I can do on it....lol Guess I will figure out...lol

Well todays the day....

Today I decided to start a blog, because my husband started one too. You see we have been through alot this past week. My dear Adam tired to kill himself because he didn't want to hurt Aaron and I by cheating on us. We have alot of issues to work through and we thought that a blog would be great because adam has a hard time opening up and talking to people including me. I hope this will help us comminicate more and understand each other more aswell. I will also include my daily deals on raising a toddler. Aaron is learning how to talk and walk and I think I'm going crazy. I love this little guy so much but some days I just want to run away because its more than I can handle. But no matter how much he might get on my nerves him and his daddy are my world and I love them both so very much and I'm so lucky to have them in my life.